Blog?

...sitting in my office, bored at 11:15pm. I should be studying, or reading, or at least cleaning my kitchen but I am not.

I'm thinking maybe I'll resurrect this blog and see if anyone still checks it. We'll see.

Updates:

1. I'm now in grad school Down South, just started in August and it's going well so far.
2. Finally have my own place, and I'm loving it.
3. Downside: am now living 900 miles away from bf and most of my friends from college. So that sucks.
4. But am making many new and awesome friends out here (though they all talk funny, haha).

And that is really all for tonight. If I'm going to get back into this blogging thing I'm going to have to do it slowly. Baby steps, people.

love,
allie

I'm done!

Done with finals!

Done with this stressful semester!

Now I have time to really crack down on those grad school applications... and maybe do a bit of Christmas shopping. Also - get ready for my trip to Panama!

Spending New Year's Eve in Panama is going to be the highlight of my year. It sucks that I'll be out of town, sounds like there's going to be some good parties here, but still... It's New Year's, it's Panama, it doesn't get any better than that.

Everyone's going home for the break, it's a bit bittersweet. Some of my friends are graduating at semester, like Blondie who stayed here the past few days. It's sad because I know it'll never be the same for us. We used to live together, you know? And now it's coming to the end. Yes, this seems a bit like the beginning of the end. I'm scared to graduate, but excited at the same time. It kind of feels like I've finally gotten comfortable here and now it's time to move on again. But at the same time there's a lot of things I wish I'd done differently here, and I'm ready to start a new phase of my life. For instance, I wish I'd made more friends, I wish I'd been more outgoing, I wish I'd taken more pictures, I wish I'd kissed a few more boys (but I do love my bf), I wish I'd spent a little more time hanging out with the girls, I wish I'd gone to Europe, I actually do with I'd spent a little more time studying... the list goes on.

Rrr... no more sentimentality. Must go. Must pack. Must clean. Must go to a movie with CL (yay!).

I'm going home tomorrow, so blog posts will be less frequent. I've got shit to do, people!

love, allie

All I need in life

Well, I took the GRE yesterday*. The weird thing about the GRE is that, since it's entirely computer-based, you receive your scores instantly. I know, it's so convenient, and you don't have to worry that you won't get your scores in time, but for me that was the scariest part of the whole damn thing. Turns out I did... ok. Yep, just ok. To clarify - for me, "ok" means that I don't have to worry about not getting into grad school based on these scores... but they're not as high as I'd like. Maybe it has to do with my bringing up. I'm simply not satisfied with being merely average. Check that. I'm not satisfied with being merely above average. I need to work on this pesky perfectionist complex. Damn it.

Now I've just got the rest of the application process for grad schools ahead of me. And that's quite a task in itself. Any suggestions?

In other news, the bf was extremely nice to me all day yesterday even when I freaked out about my merely above-average score. What a nice guy. Plus, I figured out all it takes to make me happy! Here's the short list:

• pizza (preferably Papa Murphy's... mmm, home-baked)
• beer - andI got the good stuff, Hoegaarden (which, I learned recently is pronounced "who-garden" not "hoe-garden", FYI)
  
• chocolate truffles
  
• caramel apple

love, allie

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*"yesterday" in the section above actually refers to Wednesday, not actually yesterday yesterday. Finishing the post took longer than I thought. oops!

it's grey in l.a. (or is it gray in l.a.?)

when it's grey in l.a. i sure like it that way
'cause there's way too much sunshine 'round here
i don't know about you,
i get so sick of blue skies wherever they always appear.

and i sure love the sound of the rain pouring down
on my carport roof made out of tin
if there's a flood then there's gonna be mudslides
we all have to pay for our sins

and i suppose that they'll close canyon roads
and the freeways will all start to clog
and the waters will rise and you won't be surprised
when your whole house smells like a wet dog

yay, i love loudon wainwright... almost as much as i love rufus wainwright. today made me think of that song because it actually was grey/ay here for about 5 minutes, and i was loving it... now it's all sunny and 80 degrees and crappy again. boo. seriously, it needs to be about 45but degrees and overcast. then i can wear my brand new vest from the gap that i got for my birthday. see - that's the one!

speaking of my birthday, i'm so f-ing old now. i can't believe i'm 22 already. i know, i know, later in life i'll realize how not old 22 is... but that time isn't now. pretty soon the bf will be 22 also, and then he'll be able to commiserate with me. until then, he just keeps calling me old. it's not helping.

in other news, good news - i'm going to panama! i got accepted, and i'll be there for two weeks between december and january. i'm still very sad that rob won't be going with me, but i don't know what i can do about it. he says i should just bring him back a monkey that can fetch him beer whenever he wants it. i guess that'll have to do. so far on my to-do list for panama:

• take lots of pictures
• find a beer-fetching monkey and get him back to the u.s. for the bf
  

will do!

i guess that's about it. i have to go do some serious laundry tonight. you know when you haven't done laundry in about a month and there's only the clothes you hate left in your closet and they don't even match each other. yeah, that's where we're at.

h'ok so... laundry.

love, allie